Surgery Cancelled


 I have had my days of hard parenting moments but yesterday takes the cake for being one of my most difficult days of being a Mom. The morning was spent with Annabelle helping me pack our hospital bags and showing Annabelle some of the activities we had to keep us busy at the hospital. She was so excited to go to the ‘YMCA hotel’ as she called it- the hotel with a pool. We packed Ellie her doll and all her hospital supplies and we picked out the best snacks and juice boxes. We were finally packed. Sean had vacuumed the car and removed Fiona’s car seat. We were ready to go. 

And then we got the phone call- an hour before we were scheduled to leave. 

Karinna is Dr. Kelley’s secretary and has been so wonderful at keeping us in the loop with regards to surgery time lines and responding to my very many emails and phone calls. I saw the No Caller ID and knew something was wrong. 

Karinna informed me that Dr. Kelley was not well and would not be able to operate. The surgery was cancelled.  I felt like I was in a movie and honestly I think I went into shock. I didn’t understand. We were leaving in an hour, we had isolated for a week, we had told Annabelle! April 4th is our surgery day!!!

I work in health care. I know these thing happen I just thought with only 18 hours left until we were suppose to be at the hospital we would be in the clear! And Annabelle is healthy - WE DID IT! No snotty nose or cough or covid. This alone with three little kids is a miracle. 

We are devastated. All our planning and talking and isolating  and there isn’t going to be a surgery tomorrow.  

I was already mentally exhausted from the week and this put me over the top. I am so sad and angry and frustrated. But I know this is out of my control. 

Telling Annabelle was also challenging. Explaining to a four year old everything that we have been talking about the last 3 days is not not happening is very difficult. ‘Why is Dr. Kelley sick?’ ‘Will my little leg be ok now that I’m not getting surgery?’ ‘I want to go the the YMCA hotel!!’ ‘I don’t want to go to school tomorrow- I’m suppose to be having Mommy time!!’

This will make us all stronger but man does it suck.

We are praying of course that Dr. Kelley is ok and has a quick recovery.

We are hoping to have some answers this week with regards to rescheduling her surgery and will keep you all posted. 

Sean came to my rescue and took all three kids to sky zone so that I could have some time to cry and  process what was happening.





Many of you have sent thoughtful messages this morning. Thank you. 




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